Love N Hate

what is it that keeps me coming back

What is it that has me hiding from the facts
what is it that wants me to be honest
what is that wants you to lie sometimes
... because the truth hurts too much

what is it that keeps me from wanting to walking away

what is it that stops me from hating you

... what stops me from loving you

what is that stops us from understanding each other
what is it that keeps me from letting go

what is it that makes it hard for me to say no

what is it that makes me want to love

...makes me hope for love
what is it that reminds me of the good over the bad

..... the same that reminds me of the happy rather than the sad

what is it that makes me take chances with you

What is it that makes me wait by the phone

what is it that makes me not want to be away from you

what is it tho that keeps us apart for so long

what is it that makes me still think of the you

what is it that makes me so selfish
what is that makes me happy to see you
what is that makes me glad when your gone
what is that makes me cry like nothing else can
what is that makes me want you
what is that keeps me thinking that there is a possibility of any thing
what is it that gets my hopes up even after they are let down
what is it that makes me get up early...
what is it that makes me ignore warnings
..makes me blind to the caution signs
that say this may never work
what is it that keeps the thought of you and what you do in my mind ....
...even after such a long time
what is that makes me not care if it doesnt work out
....trying is enough
What is it that makes me forgive
What is it that makes me throw those mistakes back in your face
what is it that makes me never wants your space replaced ..
What is it that makes me pay any attention
What is it that makes me ignore you
...sending your calls to voicemail
what is that i give the control to send me thru an emotional hell sometimes
what is it that makes me not want to fight you ....
what is that makes me want more
what is that makes you boring sometimes
what is that makes you blow my mind other times..
Why
is it that
I
feel
like
this
inside.