If only

If the possibility of a mistake
was not a thought
if the idea of getting caught
didnt scare me half to death
only then i would continue to partake in this sin
So what we use protection
its when we get comfortable that leaves me guessing
because
anything is possible
I dont want to be a statistic
because the dick couldnt be resisted
If I wasnt risking my sanity and my vanity
when i lay with you
maybe i would more often
maybe i could bring myself to let you continue
i could let you push me past anything i ever did
and i wouldnt pull away
Sex just aint that as pressing as i once thought it was
No longer curious
its official that the bad outweighs the good
I dont want to be that girl pushin strollers in the hood
looking at my baby daily
and then having to tell
her that
her father didnt bother enough to stay
If i knew that
in some time
9 months to be exact
You would still be there
doctors visits, mood swings ... and everything that comes between
If the shit got real
Could you deal ??
If i really felt like i wouldnt be left by myself
Only if
the possibilitly of a mistake
Didnt lay so heavily on my mind
If a slip up after you've slipped in
didnt result in
people askin
when am i due?
Only if there wasnt the possibility
that id lay awake at 5
because im being gutted from the insides
If I could deal with being twice my size
only then would i compromise ...
If your load mistakingly creates a load for me
what in hell would we do then
yes ....WE
If my weight gain didnt possibly result in the loss of you
then i continue to do the do
If i thought that if my monthly never showed up
you wouldnt respond like "i aint the only one you fucked"
Only if
there wasnt the possibility of making a mistake
only then ..
would
the
sex
be
great.