thesilentones.

the silent ones.
the built up emotions you fail to express begins to weigh tons.
You carry this weight and from it you can not run
it takes it toll and you start to come undone
you finally see that this silent game
can not be won.
--
silence is a killer & i am dying.
lacking energy since i keep trying ,
i am pushing ,
i am looking to break the silence & with these last failed attempts
i see that what i thought was here
never was or now
no longer exists
I'm feeling that you are no longer exempt
you are just like the rest of them
just as confused
refusing to admit when others you've used
how are we to care when you dont seem to
though i want to be right
& i want to continue to be polite
so i wont place blame
--
i cant understand
what it is about you that lays so heavily on my mind
stuck in my pyshce
how you got me feeling is blinding
i cant think straight
&
these thoughts take their sweet little time dying
i am constantly
thinking of what
you could have had
what I could have had
what we can have
--
i am wondering
--
why
& what really happened
--
i am waiting
for something like an explaination
to release me from this frustration
--
buts thats
only if
both parties are willing participants in speech
through our words to each other we can reach
its anybody's game
if minds are open to change
anything is possible
we just got to stop the bull
&
I can not hate you
I can not even dislike you
though i was trying to
--
its easier to love than to hate
so lets take it easy, okay?
i am wishing
you the best & nothing less than
it just takes too much energy
dealing with the negativity
i want to live happily
so i just simply
write
to break my silence
hoping the consequence
is
you breaking yours as well
SPEAK TO ME.