Speeding♥'s

Somethings
just
simply
are not meant to exist ...
just
yet
So maybe im not meant to be added to your long lengthy list
its possible that we'll never
get the chance
to
share a kiss
hold a conversation
or
even hold hands
what if we are meant to only say hello and goodbye
wait
maybe we arent even meant to speak
Vice Versa ..
maybe now im not supposed to look you in your eyes
i wonder will there ever come a time where
i'll cry over you
i mean theres nothing more that i'd rather
see is you and i
and you inside
see i want you taking me to new and much needed highs
the timing
must be incorrect
although there were sometimes
where i felt we had a connect
But i expect this from you
You cause the constant phone calls
the texts every hour
the nicknames that'd
bring shame if my mother knew about them
you bring the gifts along with the occasional bullshit
and confusion
i wonder when i know its truly you
They all want to you
i want you bad
just for a minute
maybe for a lifetime
just the chance to call you mine
if your willing
Patience is key
though i know with you easier i'll sleep
We can make each other stronger
though somedays you'll make me weak
Maybe
im to sit and wait for things to play out
it might be you who needs to make the moves
and i am the one to take it easy
make it easy for you to find me
easy to blind me
Come and remind me
its possible
and
that i deserve you
See
Maybe that is how this goes
But i'll never know when i have you
until i do.

Solved.

Distance
Darkness
Silence
Laughter
Comfort me
im content
never let go of my hand.

4 A.M.²

I'm feeling such a vacancy,
I don't feel whole
Wish I could put my finger on it
Acapella- Human -Brandy

4 A.M.²
Its my turn
My turn to somehow be honest
Some days i feel empty because of him
I just simply feel alone
because he's all ive ever known
and
some of you wont ever know
because it gets to personal
and thats where the wall
falls
comes in
and
Thats when
the dark clouds descend
and i tend to become someone else
all because
something and someone is missing
theres a void
that i want so badly to destroy
i feel sometimes
guys dont understand me
My thought process is a bit twisted
And i want to fix them
They are little help tho
Its those ones with the y chromosome
its them ones that always wanna bone that
end up on the other end of my phone
trying to ease their way into me
and somewhere you have to draw the line
Never have i cried over a guy
i mean those boo-whos
because i feared his love i would lose
Never have i felt strongly for SOMEONE
I just always feel strongly about ideas ..
So the idea of love
the idea of not being alone
the idea of having the other
some relations tho ..
you should just end
Call it quits,
hope that person you dont miss,
and say
I deserve more
I just have yet to find the one who understands that
not every girl wants her back blown out
then there are some days where i doubt
that their even looking for that
one that doesnt
the one like me
the one with the mistaken identity
that one who somehow gave guys
the impression that all i was good for was undressin
I wanna love with my clothes on
thank you very much
i want to know all the rest
i wanna start in reverse
lets save the "best" for last
because i put it first before
and now i wonder what kept him more
I just want to know that your not
just going thru the motions
Just to get next in line
Show me some how that you know what
loves like when the lights are on.

♥Sick

My mascara runs down my face
and with drinks i chase them
now im playing tag with myself
now im taking every bottle off the shelf
Trying to somehow fill that space
i tried so hard to put you into
push you into
pull you into
but
we just dont fit
and it sounds like simple shit
stll im having fits
I sink deeper and deeper
into this pain
and some days
im so used to the hurt
i cant even feel it
I become numb
and
i cant even
get up and run
from this dark place
that seems to always find my face
regardless of the lies i hide behind
Wish there
was a warning sign
a "dont enter"
or
a "caution inside" sign
Just some kind of guide
that would have pulled me aside and gave me the time
to think
Of the bullshit
and all the hurt it might bring
with these drinks i cling to my those days
where you made my heart sing
Now it just burns
because of how bad i want you to return
it does it really have to hurt this bad
for the lesson to be learned?
now my heart stings
because
i still bleed that love i wanted you to have
And as
i refill this empty glass
i wonder
how long
how will this empty feeling last?
how long
how long does it take to just get past?

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