thefifth.

"I love it when he says
he's about to leave and instead of letting me go
he holds me closer
& somehow
I thought I wouldnt get like this
like when he's gone to long its him I start to miss
I just want him to hold me tight
arms placed around my waist
look into my eyes in that way that makes me want to say I love you
makes me want to waste every second minute and hour
sometimes I just want to dedicate every damn day
just to lay in those arms
holding his hand like good luck charms
i've become completely unarmed
I no longer want to fight
love cant be planned
things like this it cant be rehearsed
so I just cross fingers that I always end up with the gift instead of the curse
I dont know what happens next month or next year
its just that days without him I'd fear