he said to her your beautiful
this was far from unusual
but she couldnt see what was so beautiful about the tears she cried thru swollen eyes
what was so beautiful about limps that she blamed on trips
the pleasure he gains from her aches and pains
its ashame
that even after taking lives
she decides to play blind
just because she is wife
and to her divorce is a sign of giving up
so she’d rather die trying
she'd rather die crying..
die lying in a bed of her own fear.

thefifth.

"I love it when he says
he's about to leave and instead of letting me go
he holds me closer
& somehow
I thought I wouldnt get like this
like when he's gone to long its him I start to miss
I just want him to hold me tight
arms placed around my waist
look into my eyes in that way that makes me want to say I love you
makes me want to waste every second minute and hour
sometimes I just want to dedicate every damn day
just to lay in those arms
holding his hand like good luck charms
i've become completely unarmed
I no longer want to fight
love cant be planned
things like this it cant be rehearsed
so I just cross fingers that I always end up with the gift instead of the curse
I dont know what happens next month or next year
its just that days without him I'd fear