2:22 last time I think of you.

tell me what you see when you look into my eyes
i've done damn well
with selling you lies
with this blessed disguise
True, im tired of having to hide
just wish I could trust you
but its cool since you've shown me I cant
Im taking the time to take out my contacts
to see things clear & exact
only looking at the facts
subtracting
the thought of happily ever afters , forgetting about dreams
just taking the time to understand what it all means
getting to know me
getting rid of anything that went along with what if .
now solely focusing on what is
See I
I never took the time to get to know you
Somehow in trying to erase a pain
that had been tossed to the back of my mind
buried it deep ,
so that you never hear that pain when I speak
which means you never got to know me either.
you were trying to erase some pain as well
occupying our bodies which bought us time to escape our minds
before we would be reminded by time that we couldnt run forever
Sooner than later and sooner for us
there went my place to escape
in all honestly we should be looking to ourselves
than subjecting someone else to our emotional hells
Never telling them the fuckedupness they are entering
for those who come after me we I wish you well
If somehow they can understand &
if somehow they lend the helping hands
I didnt have
I'm glad
that somebody , somewhere relieved you from playing solitaire
we must make them queen fast
if they put your ass back together
claiming they're so special
lets see how long the walking on air lasts
after you come down from your extasy induced high
when your crash and you fall oh so very fast
after its no longer sunny in the sky
I wonder what will happen once theres bad times?
....grass aint always greener on that other side.