pretend.

excuse the suck ass title.. i cant do titles for some reason lately..


we have mastered the art of this game
We never lay together long enough for our hearts to start beating the same
talking to each other just enough to remember names
Never confusing the reasons we get together
just never
forget the rules to this game
the second you forget your position you end up getting replaced
steady wondering why you put yourself in the game anyway
& its not like cupid aimed at you
because these are games
& we're not fools
this is not love
so why are am i so
stuck.
following his speed not because you let you take the lead
its just so you don’t get too far ahead or fall too far behind
Playing tricks with your minds
& this is not love
so why do we act so blind..
String around your finger so you remember
To keep hearts out of it
So you never forget to silence what its saying on those days when
you just want someone to talk to
just want to hold his hand
want someone who fucking understands
when you just want them to help you put a smile on
you just want that one back who you would walk miles for
question I continously ask
where did my friend go?
& i know
that emotions are not be shown in this game
the truth has been masked
see
I wont tell you its like a blow to my heart when you leave me
i won't tell you how much it pains me when we are not speaking
I wont say I think about us for almost half my day
i tried to stop chasing these things & fucking around with these dreams
they just keep haunting me because I know i can do better than this situation
learning how to fight temptations
because the reality is we've just mastered the art of pretend.