♥notlive.

So

this love
this love aint right
this love aint live
this kills the hope inside
believing that love
could never be alive again

Sins
as i lay here
he steers me in his directions
as we drive ; she's no longer live
tired of going on these rides.
due to his late night erections
im here for the 'connection'
i make no objections
money is money
&
i make it how i have to
judge me if you must

it wont affect me
because
i dont do this for us
its me
i must feed
so i
fulfill
his needs
though some nights

i know it isnt right
& this life isnt for me
somehow it has creeped up inside me
like an infection
i cant get rid of
i know that i can rise above this

give me something to believe in

as he sinks deeper and deeper
my body gets weaker and weaker

i think to myself
what i will do
he replies
everything i ask you to

so as we
both slip in and out

him out of my body
and me out of my mind
i pass the time by
trying to think what life might be like
if i
try to get back to my dream
of what i see myself
possibly being if i get off these streets.
and leave these sheets..

help me though
love wont talk to me

she wont tell me

im more than a Jezebel
tell me my destination wont be hell
tell me i dont have to sell my soul
anymore

what do i do to get it all back.

the innocent one inside died
& that night
was the last time i cried
help me to remind her
she is not alone
help her feel needed again

Her heart is still bleeding
but i ignore it
wound is still sore
&
i dont know
what to do anymore

she's grown cold
&
she's closed her doors.

love's not live
help me to revive
her.