♥'s Addiction.

**i switch persons near the end ...

I thought
i kicked this shit
Obviously
i didnt ..
I still need another hit
Im still willing
I still want you in it
....
my life that is ;)
something you do
that puts me under
never seen
never felt so amazing
been needing that feeling
lately
See
this addiction is a strange kind of thing
Cloud 9
i fly by
10
11
12
Help.
I just want a love
to love
but your none of the above
remembering that this drug isnt exclusive to me
you think
i'd be afraid to overindulge
because of
the plunge i take hitting
this hard ground..
where now
i have no voice and i make no sound
somethin like invisible
til the next visit you
make.
its that i know im not
that im not the only one
not the only one addicted
Not the only craving your attention
im not the only one standin in line
Wishing we could convict you for this crime
too bad we are willing to roll every time
im not the only one
feeling something like
hurt inside
after we come down from the high
we all watch as you leave
Goodbye.
Its those things you do that act as strings..
i allow you to continue to pull and push me
When it comes to you
still i have no limits
there's no enough that i can take
tried to find other sources but they all fake
so i wait
til i get the one
the one that beats the first in the game
No one has yet to be compared..
Some times
i stare
at my phone cuz im alone
i need a fix
for you ive become an addict
so give it to me
as i gave to you
i have to have it
so dont bullshit me
this simply is a phase ...
only if i could just get another
to get the
"fire of desire" to rage ;)
then i would turn the page
--
til then
dont judge me
cuz ive been put under
sedated by something like the greatest
love of all
love it when his love stands tall
but im
addicted
and it conflicts with everything i
once believed in
this addiction
is sick and twisted
Depiction of this little picture is perfect
thru my eyes when im high
im so far gone
that i feel like theres no coming home
no 12 step , no new drug, no one else
can help
just yet
cuz
ive strayed to far from my former self that
only my name is left
tho i feel its all right
layin in his arms
im alright
im content
feeling like its heaven sent
because
with him the ultimate high resides.