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♥Lust

You want that one whos
sliding down poles
who's hearts have grown cold
due to men like you who
came thru
giving false hopes and lying
about being true
turning around and acting brand new
you stole from them
Leaving a hole in them
now just wanting to be whole again
they let you come again
to fill in
those empty spaces
all the places love could have went
you want the ones who bend
over backwards for you
giving and sinning but never winning
there's no
happily ever after with you
Cinderella slipped for the wrong fella
one to many times
now she's no longer like I
The views you have are screwed
I fail to see what it's due to
I dont see you as the person i use to
Sex is great and all
but when she's late and you get that call
you suggest to take life
we all know thats not right
your thought process to me is fucked
cause you want that one who sucks
you want the solid definition of a slut
and im everything but
that freak is who she be
thats the name you be
calling up in the sheets
and out in the streets
gladly
she'll yell out 'daddy'
you love to father her screams
exctasy is all it ever be
It aint always what it seem tho
Her truly
you'll never see
She's just a fantasy
Sadly one of the ones who've succumb
to do anything to please you
40 inch hips you cant get past it
you just gotta hit
see
you want the one who dips
and gets into all the freak shit
her head game right
body real tight
just how you like
you just wanna blow her back out
and pull her hair
doesnt matter
long as you get yo share
--
about her
about her
you dont care at all
that she crying on the inside each time
you cant see it in her eyes
she just continues to
drown you in her sorrow
like there is no tomorrow
n
its not like you mind
because
you'll
screw all these women
they've become each others competition
you sit back and relax
as
they go toe to toe
'cause
you just wanna know
who blows best
--
So what
you strap up
one day
guaranteed
you'll bust that one unlucky nut
now
your baby mama is the one that had dreams of being
on BET's
Uncut
I fear for your future seed
mama's back to gettin low on pole
because that's all she knows
tho Special was what she once was told
daddy's a ho and never at home
My brother
i hope that you grow
let them hoes go
go for the gold
look for them
with something like
your soul.

understandthat♥

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forgive me for my sudden obsession for the ♥
♥=love

See i dont think you understand
better yet i know
You dont see truly who i am
I walked past
You looked back
and with that second glance
you grabbed my hand
looked into my eyes
and
i
thought to myself
how you looked like you had potential
then you opened your mouth
the whole moment went south
"damn baby you got some nice thighs
can i found out its what its like inside"
i dont even think
you saw the disconnect in my eyes
and as i
declined your offer
you had the nerve to be
surprised
what ashame
that this is the game you play
My name.. hello, hey .. how was your day
some simple shit you couldnt say?
now i'm
embarassed for you
but more for myself
cause at one point i would have let you use me til nothing was left
i would have let you take me home and we could go at it
all night long
and i wouldnt think twice
because by this time i would have just been falling for lines
thank you to those who have help me become wise.

♥'s Addiction.

**i switch persons near the end ...

I thought
i kicked this shit
Obviously
i didnt ..
I still need another hit
Im still willing
I still want you in it
....
my life that is ;)
something you do
that puts me under
never seen
never felt so amazing
been needing that feeling
lately
See
this addiction is a strange kind of thing
Cloud 9
i fly by
10
11
12
Help.
I just want a love
to love
but your none of the above
remembering that this drug isnt exclusive to me
you think
i'd be afraid to overindulge
because of
the plunge i take hitting
this hard ground..
where now
i have no voice and i make no sound
somethin like invisible
til the next visit you
make.
its that i know im not
that im not the only one
not the only one addicted
Not the only craving your attention
im not the only one standin in line
Wishing we could convict you for this crime
too bad we are willing to roll every time
im not the only one
feeling something like
hurt inside
after we come down from the high
we all watch as you leave
Goodbye.
Its those things you do that act as strings..
i allow you to continue to pull and push me
When it comes to you
still i have no limits
there's no enough that i can take
tried to find other sources but they all fake
so i wait
til i get the one
the one that beats the first in the game
No one has yet to be compared..
Some times
i stare
at my phone cuz im alone
i need a fix
for you ive become an addict
so give it to me
as i gave to you
i have to have it
so dont bullshit me
this simply is a phase ...
only if i could just get another
to get the
"fire of desire" to rage ;)
then i would turn the page
--
til then
dont judge me
cuz ive been put under
sedated by something like the greatest
love of all
love it when his love stands tall
but im
addicted
and it conflicts with everything i
once believed in
this addiction
is sick and twisted
Depiction of this little picture is perfect
thru my eyes when im high
im so far gone
that i feel like theres no coming home
no 12 step , no new drug, no one else
can help
just yet
cuz
ive strayed to far from my former self that
only my name is left
tho i feel its all right
layin in his arms
im alright
im content
feeling like its heaven sent
because
with him the ultimate high resides.

♥'s Loss.

Its in the "perfect storm"
that good hearts get weathered and worn
see I was once gone a stray
and he came and looked my way
saved the day
turned to me and said "hey"
took my hand and told me
he "understands"
"Baby it will be alright"
Somehow now
we've lost sight
Your love you used to help me sleep at night
But now
we fight
we argue
we yell and scream
we say things
we do mean
leaving our love a shattered dream
we "love" each other so much
that
we've loved each other too much
every waking second together
it shouldnt surprise us
that we too change up like the weather
We did this to ourselves
We are no longer sane
Love is no longer the same
slowly turning into hate
hate turning into rage
the fire inside pushes us to say the things love used to keep caged
At such a young age...
should be easy to turn the page
everybody see's that the
end
is
near
Losing your love was once my biggest fear
But these will be
my
last
tears
my love
my dear
my heart
you've seared
you cheated
and repeated
now love is left weakened
its true things aint what they seem
its true the grass aint always greener
... on the other side
I tried
to trust you
but fuck it.
So I
raise my white flag
and say to love
"Enough , I have had."