4 A.M.²

I'm feeling such a vacancy,
I don't feel whole
Wish I could put my finger on it
Acapella- Human -Brandy

4 A.M.²
Its my turn
My turn to somehow be honest
Some days i feel empty because of him
I just simply feel alone
because he's all ive ever known
and
some of you wont ever know
because it gets to personal
and thats where the wall
falls
comes in
and
Thats when
the dark clouds descend
and i tend to become someone else
all because
something and someone is missing
theres a void
that i want so badly to destroy
i feel sometimes
guys dont understand me
My thought process is a bit twisted
And i want to fix them
They are little help tho
Its those ones with the y chromosome
its them ones that always wanna bone that
end up on the other end of my phone
trying to ease their way into me
and somewhere you have to draw the line
Never have i cried over a guy
i mean those boo-whos
because i feared his love i would lose
Never have i felt strongly for SOMEONE
I just always feel strongly about ideas ..
So the idea of love
the idea of not being alone
the idea of having the other
some relations tho ..
you should just end
Call it quits,
hope that person you dont miss,
and say
I deserve more
I just have yet to find the one who understands that
not every girl wants her back blown out
then there are some days where i doubt
that their even looking for that
one that doesnt
the one like me
the one with the mistaken identity
that one who somehow gave guys
the impression that all i was good for was undressin
I wanna love with my clothes on
thank you very much
i want to know all the rest
i wanna start in reverse
lets save the "best" for last
because i put it first before
and now i wonder what kept him more
I just want to know that your not
just going thru the motions
Just to get next in line
Show me some how that you know what
loves like when the lights are on.

♥Sick

My mascara runs down my face
and with drinks i chase them
now im playing tag with myself
now im taking every bottle off the shelf
Trying to somehow fill that space
i tried so hard to put you into
push you into
pull you into
but
we just dont fit
and it sounds like simple shit
stll im having fits
I sink deeper and deeper
into this pain
and some days
im so used to the hurt
i cant even feel it
I become numb
and
i cant even
get up and run
from this dark place
that seems to always find my face
regardless of the lies i hide behind
Wish there
was a warning sign
a "dont enter"
or
a "caution inside" sign
Just some kind of guide
that would have pulled me aside and gave me the time
to think
Of the bullshit
and all the hurt it might bring
with these drinks i cling to my those days
where you made my heart sing
Now it just burns
because of how bad i want you to return
it does it really have to hurt this bad
for the lesson to be learned?
now my heart stings
because
i still bleed that love i wanted you to have
And as
i refill this empty glass
i wonder
how long
how will this empty feeling last?
how long
how long does it take to just get past?

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Say You'd Stay

As you walk towards my door

Im so used to letting you go

Not knowing if or when we would do this again

Feeling indifferent to this routine

I cant continue anymore

So

As you leave

My heart calls out to you

Before my mind can stop my heart

Here i am speaking

I'm giving it all to you

Telling my secrets and pushing my limits

Shit, its

so much that i've kept built up

'Fraid if i tell you

it would end our rendevous

It just might be too much

and if it is then

we can always hang it up

and say we've had enough

See

I never intended to ever get to this point

Figured I wouldnt fall under

Swore i would ignore the things you'd say

Swear I'd never feel this way

Since I do

Its best that I tell you

Are you listening?

Im begging

Now

I'm pleading

How you've got me wrapped up so easily is beyond me

Only thing left is to get on my knees

baby

i ask then

then will you be able to see

just how much i need you to stay

Why don't you see things my way

Something said ,when you left that bed

for me not to not follow behind

Something says your only here to recieve

my heart just doesnt want to believe

Mind tells me to be still and let you go

i tried so many times so long ago

my heart just cant do so

Please dont make this so hard for us

just tell me you'd stay

I cant stand to see you leave like you used to

what do you say

baby

why dont you stay

Classic

Imagine
A love
stringed together by key things like
Integrity
A love filled with
Passion
A love lasting because of discipline
listening
to each other
A love starting with
Trust
I want to blow the dust off
Ol' School Love
Ressurect the days
When taking women out wasn't considered a payment plan for the pussy
Back to not moving so fast
flying pass all the essentials we should be paying attention to
We dont have to move too slow
together just be willing to grow
get to know all the little things
All our wrongs we work to make right
Together
I want to find the silver lining in love
without the tears without the lying
Baby, It is with you
I am trying.