"Peace(piece)" and "forgotten me 4 he"

Peace(Piece)

I search for peace
So at night i can sleep
I search so i can stop screaming
stop my anxiety and my crying
No more deciet no misery no lying
Thought
i would find that peace in him
so I gave him that piece of me that no one else had seen
i let him recieve
i believed in us
i trusted that he would b my peace
but we see how that turned out
just like the deceased the peace was quickly taken away
he left with my peace see now i'm uneasy
its hard forme to believe another is here for me
i'm left with doubt
still i'm searching for my peace giving pieces of myself
All the while i'm trying to figure out what my search is really about ...
its to find peace in myself
to not look to him for my wealth
and my self worth
alone if i have to be
i can make this all work,
finding peace while keeping the pieces of me.

All that time
I had forgotten all of what was mines
My attention was all on how to blow your mind
time after time
I didnt mind the little part of my life
i was willing to sacrifice
Until a little turned into alot
And all of myself i had forgot
see i was no longer me i was perfectly and completely
made up of your dreams you I pleased continuously
Whatever however you wanted
I tried it , I lied and told you I liked it
I forgot I was owner of myself
It was you I gave me to
I changed my everything for you
yet and still you wanted to play games like a fool
I wanted to keep you happy so i desired to be your fantasy
So i did everything you asked me
I even did extra
for you it was my pleasure
because i was thinkin it would keep you 4eva
But you was extra cleva
You had many different ones
being who i was....
pretending to be for you
I wore the heels in the kitchen and in the bedroom i was dippin lower than before because you and your love i adored
And i continued to do what you wanted me to...
never did i want you to become bored
Myself i continued to lose, somewhere i had to refuse
it was gettin to a point where giving myself i could no longer afford
I was your cookin
cleanin
freak
Who keep you screamin
Dream N'(and) i thought that you had my back
thought u wouldnt find reason to walk
Although no gold.. no hold
No rings just a fabricated dream you cut out for me based on what you felt you may need
So our realtionship was bullshit based on things... i was your... barbie fantasy
I was too forgivin and too willing to give myself away to you
Somethin now i would never do
Though it took time to see i was playin your fool
I looked in the mirror one night and i tried
to find myself and it took
too much time
When i saw me finally I didnt see that girl you called freak
But that woman you shoulda called queen
and accepted 4 who she be.