SentimentalInducedMindState

Some odd months
whole summer
no dialing of his number
no afternoon rendavous
and you think i'm okay after so many damn days but sadly i have to say
sometimes like this time i'm not
i still wonder what if and if this
and all the rest of that shit that makes you reminisce
then i think about all the things i miss
its natural to never forget
the first times in life
and this is no different because of what i shared
i'm entitled to still care, years can pass
but memories they still last no matter how many times you repeat .. "Fuck him he can kiss my ass!"
See the first times never really go away
they stay because it didn't matter how many times you rehearsed it in your mind you
still
were
left
disappointed
and werent left with what you wanted
but you have to realize that its life
to be tried and tried again
and some of what you feel will never just die , it may never end
no matter how many and how you try to kill it
you still gon' feel that shit
you realize tho you cant force tears to stay in your eyes, your entitled to cry
its okay cus you learn from it all in some way and see the lesson someday , you just have 2 wait.