See you didnt tell me how my ass was fat
just that you could stare into my eyes all night
and never once asked if you could be inside while doing so
I found a love where I can take pleasure in the little things like sentence finishing
I love you
not only do I love you
i breathe you
Cut me see I bleed you
this shit runs deep
like when your asleep
and my heads on your chest and I cant rest
I listen to your heart beat
I feel so complete knowing the loves concrete
I believe you must have seen something , somehow snuck up in my dreams
because you be everything I need
Showing me a love so heavenly
that I constantly search for those wings
see this
is no fling , the real thing
i barely have to call your name
when im hurt you know my pain
nothing can come and make that change
belong together
made thru all types of weather
you know that i'm down for whatever
whenever
wherever
our hearts like pieces of art
abstracts to be exact
our love is nothing like we ever had
I dont need memories because everyday with you is beautiful
everyday with you is better than the last so I'll never find myself reminiscing about the past
everyday is fresh and new as long as that day includes you
I dont just lust for you
I dont just like you
but that other 4 letter word most defintely I do.

Slowly but Surely. (2)

For some it takes longer to realize things
It should be obvious to me
knowing
your heart lies with another
for some reason though
those words were hard for me to utter
Hanging on to the past
as if that first would be my last
keeping memories that no longer have meanings
I tried fighting temptations
but In an attempt to get back what I once missed
I decided not to lock up safe like I used too &
I let you come inside and strip me of my valuables
Now realizing how much you've gotten to me
Hard to sleep with the guilt I feel see
I just tell myself that mistakes are made and I'll be okay.
I can move on and one day wont think twice about you.
they say in time wounds heal..
but that doesnt seem so real
knowing that i've been dealing with this on and off for 2 whole years
It just wasn't as easy for me
though this may not be truth more and more I feel as if you
were wasted time ...
I knew the kind of shit I was in and I'd just pretend
that none of it fucked with my mind
today I fell for the last time
and though for longest I blamed you
this time I blame that one in the mirror
because her sight should be clearer now..
I know your bullshit like the back of my hand
I dont understand how I break my plans
I said you no longer run here still
deep inside I just wanted to feel like I used too
I see now that feeling is too far gone to ever get back.
Its when I relapsed I realized how bad I wanted to stay on track..
its like some type of drug and I want to stay above your influence
And with that
this
is the end.

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I used to wonder what happened to that oh so cool smooth dude that I once knew
I didnt want to let him go
so I grew partial to that someone new and I held on in hopes
that the one I knew would come back soon
my thoughts in vein
thinking back I'm a little ashamed
that I could ever fall victim to such game
especially since we always played it the same
never new rules
I never thought that there would come a day where I'd hate to hear your name
When I'd hate to see your face
I never thought that the feeling you used to give me , I'd still chase today
Never knew that with you I would ever associate such pain.
we change , we grow , we move on
all of this
I know
Somethings break and cant ever be fixed
just never realized you'd actually be missed
I long noticed the change though
calling your name didnt sound the same
and if was to dial your number I cant do it as fast as I used to
because hell I forgot the number
the thoughts of you arent so strong anymore
where they wake me from my slumber
those times when I used to wonder
will I ever see that dude again
I always knew the answer
I just never wanted to accept that the end was a looong time ago
So I just closed my eyes and acted as if I didnt know
but it was always no, because your heart lies with another
So I've just grown partial to my own dreaming in hopes of seeing that guy
you used to be.
At least now my mind is free.