SentimentalInducedMindState

Some odd months
whole summer
no dialing of his number
no afternoon rendavous
and you think i'm okay after so many damn days but sadly i have to say
sometimes like this time i'm not
i still wonder what if and if this
and all the rest of that shit that makes you reminisce
then i think about all the things i miss
its natural to never forget
the first times in life
and this is no different because of what i shared
i'm entitled to still care, years can pass
but memories they still last no matter how many times you repeat .. "Fuck him he can kiss my ass!"
See the first times never really go away
they stay because it didn't matter how many times you rehearsed it in your mind you
still
were
left
disappointed
and werent left with what you wanted
but you have to realize that its life
to be tried and tried again
and some of what you feel will never just die , it may never end
no matter how many and how you try to kill it
you still gon' feel that shit
you realize tho you cant force tears to stay in your eyes, your entitled to cry
its okay cus you learn from it all in some way and see the lesson someday , you just have 2 wait.

PowersThatB_Between

Written in english the other night...

She wants to be his dream girl
wants him to want her like the girls in the magazines
got her thinking sex sells
and well
she tries being his brave n bold beauty with the big ol booty
on call
ready to fulfill her duties
4 her man
can you understand
what she is going thru tryin to keep him as her boo
by bending over backwards literally
and every other which way he wanted depending on the day
Most call her a ho, others say nothing at all and she doesnt give a shit what they say ..
she still falls to her knees every night.


and then i wrote this ...

Sexy n sweet
thats what i b
a tasty treat
a delight to eat
i know he wanna c
how i'm just like ice cream
forget 32 flavors
i'm the only flavor he savors
when i cream we both scream
lickin me is like a dream
i taste just like candy
so come lick me
top me off with whip cream
then gimme what i need
and yea i guess you can say
i'm a bit of a freak.

Damn These

I feel like expressing myself in new ways nowadays so here is a song i decided to do ... i was thinking the same kind of sound as Disturbia,Breakin Dishes, and Question Existing by Rihanna ...The song i decided to do is called "Damn These"...


Close my eyes and its all i ever i see
Think to long and it brings me misery

Its one of those things i thought i
could let go so easily
Got me wondering what this means

Haunting and taunting me
Memories

Pissin me off and i want to scream

See it
hurts so much when things are

just what they seem

Damn these things
these things
we call memories
These damn things
they keep on repeating
these damn things
see they
they drive me crazy


See theres no turning back

i thought i had accepted that fact

But still there is

Uncontrollable feelings

Still existing and i wonder y
Guess its cuz
Deep down inside
is those thoughts i used to hide
and i tried to push them aside
but i see they're here to stay and to that
this is what i have to say..

Damn these things

these things we call memories

These damn things

they keep on repeating

these damn things

see they they drive me crazy

Its like i'm pressin rewind
in my mind, a million times
and now i fill some regret
for all those things i once i had said